Thursday, January 26, 2012
Monday, January 23, 2012
Tuesday, January 17, 2012
I miss my sunglasses.
Texas. At this point, my summer stay in Texas is at a 50/50 chance. The decision stands as to whether I still feel like going or not. I've been weighing the options. It shouldn't matter leaving everyone/thing I know even if it is for a short while. Gotta have a break from Southern California. Sure I haven't truly yet experienced the essence of LA Nights and Socal sun, but those adventures shall wait until I have the freedom and chance to. So on one hand, I get to finally leave and meet new people, learn new things, get a job. On the other hand, I'd be living a summer with a complete stranger. That's... about it. Nothing to miss. But will I be able to bear the prospect of having no authority to answer to but myself? For "madness is the result of being removed from one’s social context and allowed to be the sole arbiter of one’s own actions." Yet here I am still struggling with the idea of nothing to miss. Seems like every relationship I have nowadays is just as easily disconnected. Inspiration comes with such ease, but I never have the strength to actually do anything about it.
Thursday, January 12, 2012
I am a walking lightning bolt.
Everything I touch is a static shock. I think it's all this negativity taking over my mind and distributing themselves rather comfortably all around; thus leaving my body with quite a surplus of negative charge. I can practically feel the excitement of my negative particles floating along, happy to have so much free space to roam now that all my positive charge has disappeared along with my optimistic mind. How discomforting. It's as if everywhere I go is a carpet, and I'm just shuffling along in wool socks. But instead of a carpet, it's my days; and instead of socks, it's my mind: the mecca to all this negativity. I guess this is what it's come to.
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