"I feel like Im seeing it all at once and its just too much"

Times like these, the idea of money pains me to no end. I hate it actually. I hate money. Its the reason to most of our headaches. The banging on the door, the shouts in the dining room, the worries over splurge, all anger sprouting from nothing. A materialistic misconception that makes the world go round. Something so insignificant ... and yet.. they're at it again. And what for? Money? Reusable plastic cups? It's always the same problem, but what is it this time? Last time I felt I saved a marriage, but now he's twisted my words so their relationship is in an even more broken state than ever before. At this point, I dont even care anymore. Im not going to waste my time trying to mend something so stubborn, so biased.. so childish. Im so sick of being the family shrink. This is a problem between themselves, not with me included. But all the while, Im the glue to this relationship. All this anger and apathy simply tells me: Spend life with who makes you happy, not with someone for stability. Not with someone youre afraid of. & never with someone you fight about reusable plastic cups with.

Tomorrow is Valentine's Day, and thankfully my relationship isn't as childish as my parents. Its sad when you realize youre the adult and your parents are the children. But that's my life at the moment, how disappointing.

Quick Thought

I both hate and love how I am always finding myself stuck between two families. Having four parents means having twice the dinners to go to, having holiday nights with my dad, then regular nights with my mom.. Sometimes it gets quite frustrating having to choose all the time, but this time, it also means twice the load of receiving those beautifully smooth rosy envelopes this chinese new year!!~ WOOO! that is all.

How Unbelievably Freaking Cute

It's like the relationships we find the cutest and greatest are those when were little eight year olds and those when were old, pruny and young at heart. Beautiful.

"I think every relationship should be treated like a marriage. Don’t commit if you’re not serious. A relationship is also a promise to be more than just loyal and faithful, but also to always be there for each other through thick and thin. If you’re unsure, stick to dating. But don’t make a promise you cannot keep. If you’re not in it for the long run, why do it at all? Why put the other in danger because you’re only thinking of the present. A relationship should never be selfish, but understanding. Marriage is just a relationship with a higher title, it should always be the same as a simple healthy relationship. "