Utter Amazement

Im sorry if my blog is starting to become more like a twitter account. I just dont have much to say, and when I do, I forget it and just summarize it into one sentence. Ehh well, Yeahh =D

Well, despite my expectations, I find myself placed in motion by memories so amazingly unreal until all that I am left with is the mark of stark realization that something beyond explanation is actually happening in my life. You, my dear Moonpie, are no Little Debbie. You might think youre in the same league as that crappy nutter butter knock off treat, though. Dare to dream, Mr. sugary snack. Dare to dream.

On that note, Im feeling for a snack. Why am I always so hungry now? But even if I see food at home, I cant eat it. Well, I choose not to eat it. Because its usually the Usual. And Im starting to get pretty sick of the Usual. Also probably because Im picky, but eh I cant help that.

So a new issue of Better Homes & Gardens came in the other day and I was looking through it. There was so much amazing food recipes I could just make, But I couldnt. Mainly because of money (and sorta bad weather) but mostly money is the cause to this problem. I was talking to my grandpa just now, & yes hes doing fine. But apparently, the government pays him $96 and $96 ONLY for tax rebates since hes an unemployed American senior citizen living on his own. You would think thats too little already , but then he paused and reminded me that they paid him $96 every 3 months. SERIOUSLY? Thats like $32 a month; a dollar a day. What can you buy? Nothing. Thats petty money. $32 a month is what 9 year olds get for their allowance. This is a 76 year old man, and I asked him why it was so low. But of course, youd know. The economy, the taxes, the increasing number of life support customers, it affects everyone. When I hear this though, all I think is just "Wow." My 76 year old grandpa only gets $96 every three months when there are people I know who complain about ONLY getting $20 a week. I hate those kind of people. Appreciate what you have people, because before you know it, it may as well be gone. And then you really have something to complain about. Well, I guess this is just something so utterly amazing that we can never understand till you actually go out there and become that poor son that lives a minimum waged Mcdonalds life. Good luck.

Well on another note, I had an intresting dream last night. All I remember is that I was standing in front of this dark long electric stove and I was trying to make a quesidilla. But it was like a burrito, and I kept stuffing cheese inside so it could be even more extra cheesy and delicious. But I had to stuff it fast, or the burrito quesidilla would burn, which it did. And then it exploded, and I freaked out. Then I woke up. Yeah, Idk. But I wonder what it means..

Swear To Howdy

Okay, you guys, next time I say Im going to get a haircut; slap me in the face and convince me not to. Thanks.

So yeah, finals, 2 more weeks of school, presentations are all coming up. Sighh. Ive been thinking about the general of things lately. It feels like everythings pretty planned out, like I know everything that is going to happen. There are no more surprises. Everythings so damm boring, I know.

I just

had The Greatest idea of all that could be considered great ideas.

Nevermind (last post)

You guys, Im really hungry =(

Headache

I lost my iPod. I know it shouldnt be a big deal but it is to me. My iPod was my most prized materialistic possession. It was my escape from boredom. It was my escape from the shouts & annoying voices. My escape from my useless teachers teachings. Who knew one tiny hand held sized black square could be my best source to the ultimate stress relief when I have no one else; and I fucking lost it.

But then again, I have to remind myself of the best piece of advice I ever heard... even though my sense of ambition has basically appeared to have crashed and burned. I know I sound like a spoiled tard right now, but I cant help it. I feel like crap. I've been eating Costco Fuji Apples like there is no tomorrow, but only to silence now. I miss my iPod. If anyone finds or hears of a lost black 30 GB video iPod, please do tell.

Stupid Frosting, Why Do You Keep Melting?

I am sitting at my computer surrounded by silence. The speakers are off and no homework is completed. I haven't gotten pass laundry or finishing the cupcake. Tomorrows Shawnas/ Bryans Birthday and Im making them this huge cupcake cake. So far its not really working out. I try to go Ace of Cakes status, but clearly, Im never going to be a professional cake artist, baker whatever. Instead of being productive, I've spent the past hour wasting my life on myspcae and Reality reruns while attempting to not lose my faith in melting frosting and all of humanity, generally. And I still have this massive headache and sore tensions around my neck mostly from Jenns party yesterday =( (Which was amazingly fun btw).

All right. Less chilling. Less reality television. Back to work. Im happy that this alternative universe exists. So Ill post more later, I have to watch my cake.

*Ive begun to notice that everytime you get to see him, I dont get to see you. Missing you more than words pretty much explains it.

Quote of the Day

"For me, blogs are not really interesting; I find it tedious to sift through opinions."

Temporary Relief

The taste of cough medicine is like spoonful of sugar now. Ive eaten it so much now, I dont even grimace at the bitter taste to it. Is that a good sign? Youd think that after downing 5 million teaspoons of Dayquil will help my current condition but it seems the medicine only does what it says on the bottle, Temporary Relief. Fak. What a waste of five good hard earned/saved money.

Friday (School Birthday): Thanks for the 15 Amazing happyface balloons you guys, they really made my day. For serious. I went to Cell Friday for the first time. The day didnt turn out like planned so I was sort of depressed and blank from the day (Even though hanging out at Bryans house was chill). We went from Camerenes house and walked to Cell. I started having a headache and my "Allergies" were acting up. But then Darren takes one of the balloons and a whole bunch of other balloons around the apartment and we started writing on them, venting on the balloons and letting them go. Watching them float away and dissappear with my complaints written all over them sort of helped my somewhat pissed/unsatisfied mood. The Happyfaces on them also made everything ironically better. When we got to Cell, it felt like all my bad feelings just dissappeared as fast as the balloons went up in the sky. Idk I think it was just the atmosphere and the fact that it was this small get together for a purpose. Even though Cell isnt a place Id usually go Fridays, it was a nice place to vent and be (Especially if you felt like I did).
*I sort of really really really hate your parents did you know that?

Saturday (Birthday!): So I woke up around 8 and couldnt fall back to sleep at all. Its getting pretty annoying becuase it seems like I have this automatic body alarm now that only lets me sleep for 7 hours (I went to bed kinda late). No more no less. Apparently Haseeb, Camerene, Jessica, & John threw a surprise party. I love you guys, seriously. And thanks to everyone who came, I hope you had fun! After spending 200 hours getting ready, Camerene and John picked me up. I had a feeling there was something up, especially when we were driving to her house and I saw Chris and Erics car driving to Camerenes house. It was pretty obvious you guys. But yeah, we ended up swimming in the 60 degree weather. It was freezing cold but it was chill. Afterward, we all hung around Lollicup and Super and jest went to Joshuas house for his party. Over all, Id have to say this was The Best birthday Ive ever had. I really cant thank you guys enough =)
*I still really really hate your parents yo.

Sunday (Dinner): Dinner with my Dad was awkward. As usual. He didnt know what to give us. As usual. And he forgot how old I was. As usual. But I ended up getting this apparently expensive silver necklace thats "Cool& hip" In his standards. These are the times when Im glad I wouldnt have to go through these dinners alone. Im glad I wouldnt have to deal with the awkwardness myself. We ate this delicious Japanese/Korean BBQ dinner at his house and it was pretty chill. One memorable moment though from my Dad to my sister, "So youre 18 now? (Smiles) Hey,now youre officially legal to have sex!" Bhahaha Ahh Good old Dad. The night ended with two awkwardly nice hug from both my Dad and stepmom. As usual. But Id say, it was time well spent. I havent seen or spoken him in about 4 months anyways. As usual. But it was alright =) .. As usual.
*Still do, nothings changed.