Message to AB

You are playing darts. One eye open, tongue stuck out for concentration, the target is your world at the moment and you plan on hitting that point. In your hand you hold barely enough darts to efficiently practice these dart skills, and yet the game still goes on. You try and you try but all you can get is the outer circle surrounding the target. So close yet so far. But out of nowhere, you surprise yourself. You surprise us all. You surprise me. Bullseye.

If I discovered the art of finger tutting and perfected it, I'd be the coolest kid on the block.

2:51 AM and my mind is still in its afternoon mode & fully awake. People always talk about missing school when they feel this summer boredom. But isn't that feeling the beauty of summer? The feeling that you can have all the time to do nothing (or everything) you've been expecting this entire school year. But all people do is sit and talk, no action. Not for me though. This summer has been all about what I've been looking forward to, no plans, no deadlines. I'm pushing back the thought of school as far back into the depths of my mind as I can. Some may call it precious time wasted doing nothing, I call it appreciation. More like self appreciation. Yeah, that's what my summer is all about: giving 3 months all to myself and not to school, to show how much I appreciate my life. Or should appreciate my life.

So back to the reason to this little blog here. I was spending my precious time wasted doing nothing by looking up movie trailers after watching Chaos Theory (FANTABULOUS MOVIE BTW) and my spaghetti mind began thinking about relationships and life and how much people appreciate them. I guess Youtube really understands my spaghetti mind a lot being that I started streaming sidebar links, clicking on one movie title to the next. But back to the point. These characters made me realize how much I need to appreciate life more. You watch movies about love and how these two were meant to be but one of them is diagnosed with a life threatening disease or dying and yet, they're living life to the fullest without a single depressing thought (as this blog is very much full of).. Makes you want to appreciate life doesn't it? For those of you who think your day isn't good enough, or isn't fulfilling your standards to the perfect beauty of a day you could be living, remember those who have one day less to live. I don't know why it's so hard to not think the negative thoughts. To just succumb to depression. It's as if our minds will always be on procrastination mode, ready to appreciate life and go all out only when you find out you're out of time and it's too late. What a sad way to think, but at the same time I hope this isn't me. I hope this little thought is fleeting. Then I can be like all the other characters in the movies and be somewhat at peace.