Quick Thought

I both hate and love how I am always finding myself stuck between two families. Having four parents means having twice the dinners to go to, having holiday nights with my dad, then regular nights with my mom.. Sometimes it gets quite frustrating having to choose all the time, but this time, it also means twice the load of receiving those beautifully smooth rosy envelopes this chinese new year!!~ WOOO! that is all.

How Unbelievably Freaking Cute

It's like the relationships we find the cutest and greatest are those when were little eight year olds and those when were old, pruny and young at heart. Beautiful.

"I think every relationship should be treated like a marriage. Don’t commit if you’re not serious. A relationship is also a promise to be more than just loyal and faithful, but also to always be there for each other through thick and thin. If you’re unsure, stick to dating. But don’t make a promise you cannot keep. If you’re not in it for the long run, why do it at all? Why put the other in danger because you’re only thinking of the present. A relationship should never be selfish, but understanding. Marriage is just a relationship with a higher title, it should always be the same as a simple healthy relationship. "

Wow that's some dedicated loving right there. I wonder if they will get married anytime soon, or ever. You just cant have enough respect for people like him.

Do you seek adventure in the everyday?

I thought a good thought for my blog today but I forgot what I remembered to write anyways..

“Getting through the workday will be a bit of a battle — not because you’re fighting with anyone, though. You just won’t want to be there. You’d much prefer to be home, either alone or with the one person on the planet you feel comfortable enough to be completely silent with. It’s not that you’re tired — you’re just drained. You’ve been burning the candle at both ends lately. It’s okay. Even you need to rest every now and then.”

Im glad my parents are loving enough to know that I need a break from this fire constantly melting my mind into scheduled workdays. So I didn't go to school today, sue me. I took a day off to clear my mind from all the pointless thoughts that float around my head when Im at school. I've been quite an observer lately because of these thoughts and it got me thinking about them insecurities again.

I need to start fresh. I need to do what I want but Im never able to maintain the interest to finish what I need to finish. Looking back to recent posts, (back when I used to update on a day-to-day basis) I feel like Ive had all these ideas, this sense of an original personality and way of thinking that made me who I was. But now, noticing all these observations and formula talks going around, I feel as though I have been sucked into the mindlessness of schooldays and my mind has become blank. blank and melodramatic. I need.. I need to stop complaining so much. dang

Open up empty word document. Stop. Go on Facebook. See this ^ in every other status. I make homework too much harder than it should be. In a sense, if I really put my mind to it, I can finish all these analysis problems fast, but obviously my mind is not into it and I wake up with hoops under my eyes and a pissy face in the morning.

Today was my mother's birthday and we last minute decided to eat out. Interesting conversation today at the dinner table. It made me remember witnessing my sister exploding her teenage backtalks at my mom. I remember after my sister left and being the younger sucker I am, I went on over to my flustered mom and promised her I would never explode like that to her face. What happened to that?

"It is no wonder that kids are growing up more cynical; they have a lot of information in front of them. They can see that they are living in a world that's made of bullshit." -Marilyn Manson