Scared Shkittles

for finals this week.

http://www.youtube.com/kaacyong

I realize that Im starting to make almost one of every type of internet account. I think all thats left now is twitter and tumblr. But no worries. I will never fall into the evil pointlessness of twitters and I will always be a bloghead. && I deleted my formspring. So yaayzers!!
*Cuss Ive gotta stop getting so distracted so easily & some tard finished my capn crunch cereal!

Cuss its not friday yet??

I was walking home from school after my complete fail of track tryouts. Its not too far. Just a bunch of hills. I pass a park. I always pass a park when I walk this way. It looked different today. It was telling me that I should just go lie down on the nice looking grass and fall asleep. Lay down and look up. Then agian I was dead tired. and freezing my ass off. My legs suddenly weighed 50 billion pounds each. Unfortunately. I shouldve practiced for track. I never thought it was necessary. I think its necessary now. Very necessary. Think about the last time you considered misery as a necessary part of life. Thats how it was going home. It felt like forever up those hills and my nose started sniffling up. It would had been better if the sky was pretty and starry for once.

Well, I wish I made track, I probably wont, but whatever, theres always next year. Why does it matter? Dk, but You can bet Ill be prepared by next year. I am no longer the person I was last year. Im capable of seeing things with a much wider view in a simpler dont give two shits kinda way. But then again i realize wishing is basically a form of complaining &doesnt really help. I just need to know what I want, and actually do something about it and then, maybe Ill be happy. I dont know yet though. I guess I just need my motivation. But for now, Im gonna pull a nike, Just Do It. Lesson learned.

Regarding the world as inconsequent

I made a formspring.me cause its something plus to do other than facebook, blogging, and tetris. How lame. Ask away! ..Or nawt.

http://www.formspring.me/kacyong

"I see what I want and I want what I see. & That is all, okay by me."

..There is quite a feeling of summer in the air- dont you think? Suckss.

Im trying to remember every single moment and day that happened on winter break in the last two weeks.. yah its not really working out. But Im gonna have to say it was the least bit fantastical. Late night hangouts, waffles, drive-in movies, sunday mornings, spontaneous plans and rain, Jupiter, and snowboarding trips are a pretty great way to end this amazing year to this amazing month. Maybe something magical will happen. Depending on how vulnerable you are, you see the sad or the happy.

I have no resolutions this year, because I know itll probably end up like last year and Ill be too lazy to resolve my resolutions till next year. But this year Im scared that Im not strong enough to make a better life for myself. When it comes down to the very idea on making the tough decisions or just going for what I want, I get too afraid of failing, and I quit.. But its like Ive said, 2009 has been, by far, the best and worst year of my life. Keep it coming.

Well, time to get started on my homework, oh shieeet.

Bonne annee!

I have a lot to learn.. but holy shit Im soo sore.