Chino Friday

One more month till CHRISTMAS FOOLIOS! This is gonna be about my friday, even though Im posting on a sunday. Mostly cause I forgot what I was going to post about. I hate it when you have a great idea, so amazing (& you know its amazing too) then you get all excited and before you can share your idea to the world, you forget it. Shiet. I remember it was a very intense idea too that you would love to read but I forget. Sad how those amazing ideas never last.

So I went to bed pretty late last morning and I couldnt really sleep. I probably spent about half my life tossing myself to unconsciousness. Thats why this morning I woke up with that feeling of when you stand up and all the blood rushes to your head and you feel dizzy.Then it feels like time is moving in slow motion and you just fall back down and get your head together and then that feeling is gone as fast as it started. You know that feeling?

I love the days of happy smiles and just plain fun friend bonding time. Days like today. (minus the sleepless feelings and Shawnas being sick) Therefore, Ill have to say Black Friday was pretty funno annnd thanksgiving was like it always is. Yaknow.

But its sunday now and every time I sit down I’m asked why I’m not studying. Goodness, Its vacation, stop with the questions.

Agh. Complaints.

Well all you people, stop reading blogs and go outside! Its about our last day of Thanksgiving break and Im gonna go spend it baking cookies and all. Until then!

Heyyo

I think, I know, and I really realize that Im becoming a Bloghead. Maybe even a Youchoober, and slightly googledead. So why is everyone switching to tumblr?? Okay. Tonight means today. Dont bother understanding this one blog. Hmm lets see, ouh yeah, hung out with them friends for funfun friday all the way till Saturday morning so I ended up waking up at during late Sunday PMs again. Ive been doing that a lot lately, I guess I should schhhtop. But I do love waking up feeling SUPERDUPERDELIOUS though(<---Haaaa). I think it was Saturday. Nevermind that, we hung out at 1 AM Yeah it was late that time. But it was fun. Watched new moon. Of course. waat the hayel is all I have to say. No details.

Enuff said, what a small blogg. Im off to get some sleepums. (How in the hell did my bathtub get so distusting?)

November 15 in 2012

Quick Note -------
It was a fantastical night. I woke up this morning and the first thing I thought "today is gonna be a good day" & it was. I finished my work yesterday so I basically spent the whole day crashing at home till woke up again for 2012. Why is it that all the fantastic movies are only shown in selected hollywood theaters? well thats okay since 2012 wasnt so bad. Jest now I just feel like the worlds gonna blow up any second now that Ive seen it get destroyed once.

Ill have to tell you that I might be taking a break from blogging for awhile since my grades are not very asian at the moment. Its turning my mother into a nagging parental beast, its getting a bit annoying. She says I should get a tutor, should I get a tutor? I think not.

Agh I keep forgeting todasys sunday. I really just wish today was yesterday so I wont have to think about tommorows shitty monday feeling.Ouh well so now I sit here waiting for laundry to dry while I search up more pictures of beautiful people. I really think its becoming a new phase. My back is aching from too much blogging, so until then good nightlah.

&& why does laundry take the whole day? Ehh I think I poured too much bleach into my second load. Dammit. (two blogss in one! Yay!)

8th Grade Emails

KC wrote:
Well not if he becomes a fat turd no.

what happened?? ..you okay? Did he do something to hurt you??? cause if he did... IM GONNA FREAK HIS ASS!!

CCTY wrote:
nooooo, you just think you have to do that. haha and no you don't dream about it at all
you actually start thinking about them nonstop... especially when you're dating someone that lives 1000 miles away from you and in a different state too. and you fell in love with this dood
haha thats when it starts to get complicated :( but i care about him so i'll go through hell for him :D would you ever EVER do that for a guy?

KC wrote:
yeah.. but that also means i have to dream bout it. im not the one in a RELATIONSHIP here. haha

CCTY wrote:
too bad you don't have to deal with it :/

KC wrote:
Yeah im glad I probably wont ever have to deal with this, Im sorry you do.

CCTY wrote:
no its something he didn't do. but we talked it through and i love him even more now. haha i guess i'm just the one who's stupid. come back soon please

KC wrote:
Oh..okay forget bout the whole "kicking ass" thing then xD eheh Gaad i freaking hate this place. get me out of here!

CCTY wrote:
dont worry. ill see you soon.

--Do you remember this? Its misleading, but I guess it 'helps explain a lot from whats happened. Hi I failed miserably. But ohhh well it was all done in a big rush over a few nights, I made a fatal error also so that explains a bit. I know better or next time now though don't I?

The Great Urban Escape Plan

Stfu And let me waste my time on facebook. Gosh. I wish things could simply be fun and fancy free. The weather has been really amazing lately but of course only after school ends, nothing that good can last this long. Tomorrow is going to be hot again. Or today. But oh well.

I want to stay another season. . To see winter upon this sorry land now. The weathers been like my days. In the morning its really delicious and cold, even the sight of the sun isnt so bad. But then, it creeps up and destroys my day, making it feel so long and endless. I think it starts around 4th period. Then the lunch bell rings and usually Id be in a good mood, but the sun comes out all the way with full blast and shits me in the eye. And then I dont feel so wonderful anymore thus forward, and I go home with a tired look on my face. But thats okay cause I end up taking a nap and I wake up feeling amazing. Then I realize I still have homework. And the cycle repeats. Those of us who find new life and new energy when the twilight hours hit all know what I mean. We spend all light hours behind desks, letting life pass us by in a futile attempt to earn a good enough grade to impress our parents. I showed you this before.

Today I am loving these late night conversations. I just want more of the night.
Today I am hating the impossible Chem test I still didnt study for yet. Ahhh Good whatever.

He looks like Mr Deshan I swear.

November Friday(s)

I really cannot comprehend how I feel at this exact moment, and yet Im completely intoxicated with happiness. But these questions.. these things left unanswered, it has left me captivated by its nameless, hidden parts. All I do is think and think and urge to know the interpretation of the unknown. Just to take two seconds and realize how two faced our lives could be.

We have this sense of longing for love and for stability. We search for the knowledge of what we dont know and then pretend as if we do understand it all. With longing, there is regret, forgiveness, patience, and surprise. It constantly changes and undoubtingly always will. We crave for places weve never been and aspire to know their meanings. Hoping that one day we will experience that eternal bliss. Nothing is gained from worry, or hope anymore. We realize we can never give up longing and wishing in this life. No matter how hard we try.. Its almost impossible. Theres always going to be those instances where we think all we do is wrong, maybe though there is some truth in that-- thinking that it may be something to forget and banish. Something to never look back on again...

In the midst of it all i feel like my life is spinning. Some good spins and some bad. But im just taking everything in. Taking all the shit thats been thrown my way & dealing with it. Being thankful when my life is just simple. Somewhat. But, everyday is a never ending reminder that nothing feels right anymore. Day by day i really become more at a lost of what to feel. Maybe im just faking my happiness. You say time heals all, it doesnt seem right though. This school year is already almost halfway over and it makes me realize how fast life by. I cant wait though, until I can graduate from high school and be on my own.. doing my own things & living my own life. Exploring the world. But at this moment, im on a crossroad, trying to figure out which path to take.. I choose to just forget about it all. I just wanna live & it shouldnt matter if i screw up. Right... ? I have the rest of my life to be serious and grow up. But for now.. screw it. I'm gonna do what im gonna do. No regrets.